The edging on blazers, jackets is intriguing. The boxish coats are a catching and curious visual, not sure the appeal holds up when seeing it repeatedly. Or at least feels annoying in the short AND long term for me.
http://men.style.com/fashion/top_ten
Flashed on doing some tv fiction project with her papers, or side project companies...
http://nymag.com/news/features/influentials/16926/index1.html
I hear lots of smart, contemporary solutions with the product offerings, extended/24 hours, and overall MORE thoughtfulness to the variety of eaters they have. Would love them to be less cliché 'American' diet and even better at the veg*n offerings. In part, because they have such a global presence, and means of influencing dietary health; also, the food is troublesome health-wise, especially for its heavy use customers. Ah we shall see.
http://www.businessweek.com/print/magazine/content/07_06/b4020001.htm?chan=gl
I'm thinking veggie castle, by car though - can I convince lil design brother, or...??
Would like to put up my Ebay auxxxions tonight too, continue clearing out things.
Strong bit in my head... wanting to enter other's people's natal chart info into one software Now. Will pull together the pile at least, eh?
Went out last night for a 50th birthday dinner and dancing. Skipped most of dinner, saw couple alum brothers. The one I hadn't seen in a while was sitting at the table with two exes plus an initiate (very funny stuff). I think he was quietly chanting Oy Vey for awhile. * May've been too intense and/or cold for some.
I would like to see myself continue to date, dance, cafe and explore the city more going forward.
Face project seems apropos for Spring - confident a photography partner/solution will appear. Simmering on what to do with all the photos. Seeing a screensaver/slide show piece with a song or two. Also, seeing some cards (postal?) from it.
Yes, I am still interested in authoring and publishing books, probably fiction (maybe as a way to sell originally scripted work), and thinking self-publishing. Mainly to shape the timing + execution myself, and, yes, keep more of the money. I stay open to a publisher, I don't expect or only rely on them/that model to do my thang.
Was playing with a menu concept for next Chicago Christmas. Would be some sort of veggie soul, a la me, spread. Want to come up with more mostly vegetable offerings (e.g. collards, cabbage+carrots). Could be called Down Home. Seeing soulghetti, red beans and rice, trader joe chix nuggets, ?dirty rice, riblets or pete's bbq mock duck.
It may be that I go for Father's Day and his birthday (will they be traveling?) this year. Or could be some other random Spring weekend plus the November film festival. (Shucks, my sister is no longer north - so I'll need to rent a car (or even borrow hers? no, can get one from Pops.)
I may go to Asia over the Christmas, etc. holidays.
I believe I will stay inside today ordering Thai for food, writing (lyrics) in sprints (a la David Allen and Merlin M./GTDers), reading mags and some astrology.
Does roommate have any sort of kitchen/egg timer I can use? Or could I run around to the hardware store and get one, reasonbly cheap?
I feel rather good, and happy, overall. I'm still a bit stunned from the dinner date last night.
Two showers later... I'm still a tad stunned, and he's called once this morning already. * I feel too spiteful to chat, or at least fearful I'll say something from that place. (Internally, I'm hearing - is that so bad, wrong?)
On the GTD (Getting Things Done) tip I ran across last night, I believe I could let the Out and Clik subscriptions go, or even
On the finance titles, let's look at Financial Times online paper, WSJ, and something else stocks-angled.
Thanks.
from HX 19 Jan 07, porn star Francesco D'Macho on the US coast living:
Interviewer: Having lived in New York, and worked in California, what's the difference between the East and West coasts?
FM: I was surprised because San Francisco is very different, it's very European. People are very friendly there. In New York, people are very jaded, they've seen and done it all. I used to be like that too. But it's nice to go back to Europe, the people are just more relaxed.
So the Dawghouse O U T of my daily life, and soon my system/brain.
I do have a LOT of resells - maybe 700 items (books, lots of CDs and a few DVDs). I'm glad I've kept them, they steadily sell and likely need some detailed repricing from me. Books selling for over $1 will be reposted to AMZN shortly. Have some Freddy CDs to add to AMZN as I didn't find them on half.com. Looking to do eBay Auxxions (3 days) thereafter. Then circle back to notate the CDs I've uploaded before mailing them to their new owners. Would like to tackle Quicken catchup and Tipbook data prep and design thereafter, getting to a post office mid-afternoon, followed by a meal, random fun stop - cafe for voice and rags?, then Carleton pre-reunion dealio.
OK, that was prosaic way to make a list LOL. I feel better and on point. Oh, tomorrow.
Seeing haircut, new resume review, breakdown small box (one with postcards, stamps, etc.), plus create conference composite image for MyAquent profile, and still need a new introducing Demetrius bit to segue better with the success stories and new resume.
I can see repacking ideabooks, for now, and putting CDs on bookcase for easier access, and quick visual separation of the collections: original, new M&As, and Freddies. May do today, seems like not the best or most important use of time. Thinking Saturday or even Sunday is more apropos.
I can see moving the scanner/printer/copier to the SW corner and returning the plasic mesh baskets to the computer desk platform underneath.
This tech basket seems like a great candidate to shrink down.
Was targeted for previous completion (2006 and/or before leaving Dawghouse):
*Going digital
**8mm films converted to DV tape; tape made into CD-rom with soundtrack, chapters, etc.
**papers scanned, AK-named and e-filed
**all BIllboard Pop and R&B #1s acquired, loaded, and labeled to my iTunes
**selected vinyl converted to mp3 by a service
*History binders catchup completed
*Wardrobe refreshed and reorganized
...2,3 other items are absent, or perhaps even completed. Oh,
*Treo and Mac sync'd together
Can easily see bringing in Re$ells. I think it's eight paper boxes, more books than CDs. Want easy access, yet to not be/feel crowded. Åiming to have CD spines visible at a glance.
I'm wondering about the books' boxes being under the music keyboard. Not sure if the radiator top is a good move for the CDs. That is where I'm feeling to move them, for now though. I like the space under the Vera painting clear - that feels like GOOD energy to me.
I feel like I could be described as a spiritual plumber.
Too many contortions at the old job - ha, it's past tense now!
Less of his self-mystique, more sharing of him real time (r/t)
Being delibrately more dressed, beautiful in my attire. Sexy even.
Keeping routine (work/chores) as dynamic and fresh, not rote and stale.
Feeling more comfortable acknowledging my attractions while out and about.
Let's keep a running little of indie music purchases (?on Mac4's desktop).
I would like to call it on the 2006 disc favorites, and share them. Under/Giants seems like a viable candidate.
I felt like I needed to be aware of my currently intended '07 vacation plans.
Flashed on lots of vegan appetizers and a winter cocktail party here in the apartment. People are dressy, I think it's a just cuz dealio. I would ask people to bring a friend, not stuff. This seems like an ecletic group, if perhaps intentionally broad, or simply mixed.
Thinking Atlas Cafe for Kev, D and Joya sit down and eat.
Continuing to think about how to bake & cook plus share with groups (not expecting the goodness of veg*n). As well, more friends, colleagues for meals at the apartment.
Yes, I am feeling, and seeing ['07 astrology datebook], my exit.
The title Star Turns is not obvious enough, I feel, to do a fictionalized comedy-expose on them.
*I'm still feeling like laptop sooner than later. At the same time, I feel no other major purchases until I clear a short-term debt item or two. Plus, it's not a huge necessity, if perhaps a convenience. As well, part of me wonders about selling mac4 for a souped-up laptop, so I'm not doing some big syncing dance all the time. Plus, the mobility is seemingly more key and cool.
I see Vegas and Mpls potentially being a combined trip using NWA miles. Not seeing where on the calendar though! This really makes Vegas even more affordable (car, eats, show(s), ?shopping).
I want to do some contract positions for so many weeks, or months, with breaks in between. I may need to find a fabulous perm gig, so I can best plan and use my time, resources, etc. etc. The planning is SO much easier. The key is for some sort of cycle where it's refreshed/renewed.
This week, I see CostCo, T.Joe's, passport, and driver's license. May need H&M, Rafik. Oh, definitely the bag store on Broadway & 11th.
Daytimes, I see reading all articles awaiting. I see post-Christmas shifting media to home. Under the bed seems wise spatially.
+When am I ordered padded envelopes?
+When am I reposting the appropriate resell books to AMZN - they need to earn me $1.00 minimum, so what's the least unit cost?
Travel is very unclear for most of 2007. That seems like a fun, and good, thing though. I do see Denver for Jean Grey's graduation. Flirting with DJing a Spring Fling party while there, or maybe a BBQ/lounge feel.
New playlist, tt: Fall Back
Buttons/PCD; My Love/Justin. +fill out later
I want better money, workplace, facilities (e.g. kitchen, 'cubes'), work/load, location (for eats, men, serendipity), cool technology. I'm looking at working with budgets in addition to timelines. I'm ambivalent about being the account person. I'm excited about being the project manager, and very comfortable to do more trafficking.
More about enjoyment than benefits; I'm fine to settle up with IRA or such later to reduce my tax bill; I'm very OK to move off medical and dental insurance for a minute, especially if I am paying for part of it. (Would mean establishing a relationship with an acupuncturist I really like, eating and exercising great, plus funding '07 quarterly dental appointments wisely.)
I feel like any more buys need to happen with the cash I have right NOW! LOL
I see putting up my resume, and digital portfolio, on SOME of the 12 sites this week. Taking/making those calls. I see lots of offers, and work. Perm needs to be compelling AND very on-point. I'm interested, I'm NOT pressed. * I'm OK to do PPT/Word Specialist work, excited even. However, this is off target from Producing Media/Creative/Events so it's a lesser piece.
This week: settle up on personal ADMIN items (listed above plus Quicken catchup, auxxxions, mag clippings)
Next week: personal photos, History binder, finish up reading archive
Week btw C'mas and NYE: Packup and transport, discreetly, items home
Week after that: exit, glow, write & send thank yous
I may be feeling gooey with the Cancer Moon. This morning I had a dream around answering my team lead when I would go. We were in a circle of people - she not quite opposite me, and sitting in front of a sunny window. [Hmmm, the circle could be my chart LOL.] She was offering/saying four months; I was saying a month, maybe two. She was not in agreement, though uncharacteristically not emphatic. Was Jupiter and/or Neptune speaking here?
Also, another dream - I think one or two before this one where I woke up answering one month to team lead - was something around receiving $5,000 - felt like a gift with a purpose, not this spring dawghouse bonus, not some loan or such. Could be a signing bonus. Definitely in writing this it felt like a surprise from "somewhere else" - more out of the dark, than the blue. [Dark could be a casino, fyi.]
OK, so back to the first dream... IF I'm there for another four months, I need to work it so I've no short-term debt once I leave. In fact, maybe I stay until that's ALL GONE. Somewhat tricky, or simply ultra-precise stepping, with the need to refresh my portions of the apartment some AND clearly the wardrobe. And that all says to me last night's pondering a small 3rd income (part-time job, maybe 10 hrs/wk) is on point. I had/have concerns about how that usurp another two weeknight evenings. Or is this work I could sometimes do at the daygig? AND is this all syncing - cuz really where's my creative writing to market, share and sell?
Crisp shower thought last night: I see myself storytelling with music, songs even, as characters emotionally explore, express and evolve. (Nothing new here, just more a statement as I shake down the tree.)
I want more change, and Oomph, in my clothing closet. Today I feel like I need more good underwear and sox - well, good as in color variety and fun/happy factor.
I write original scenes better than stories. Am I going to become great at plot? And before answering that, does this mean I'm better at anthology, sketch and variety show formats?
While theater is so plentiful in NYC, I feel the need for bigger stakes - and that seems to mean audience-reach, technology involved, and that ol' reflex to go for recorded over live. Or at least in how it's shared with majority of an audience, e.g. SNL or most sitcoms.
Leaving sooner is now a necessity. Bigger fry jobs await, and even beckon.
Author Karen Russell (St. Lucy's Home For Girls Raised by Wolves) confirms "Writing often doe sfeel like taking dictation from another planet, or a chorus of voices." Brian de Palma shares with EW on his 1973 filme, Sisters, "I made a conscious attempt to learn how to tell stories with images, and Hitchcock is the master of that." Nancy Sinatra offers in October '06 OUT:
Somebody called the '70s the 'me decade,' but for me it was a time of change - the move from our 20s to 30s is huge anyway, that period when you look at your life and say, 'What the fuck am I doing?' I'm not doing anything important, I'm not getting anywhere, I'm not contributing to society in any shape or form'
Going forward,I'm
+Leaving new gay rags (hx, metrosource, next, blade and gay city news), Village Voice and l magazine issues outside the apartment. i'm welcomed to read them, yet keep them out of the immediate mix - and they are online anyhoo. perhaps a media dietary measure, you might say. the exception is providing immediate available copyfor appropriate visitors; new york spirit is OK to bring home because of its content, and is a quick read.
+Migrating fully from conventional tv viewing as Project Runway Season 3 finishes (two more to go! :-) :-( )
as roommate is buying a new flat screen, I will continue downloading from itunes, torrents, etc. to view such on my new mac, or wait it on dvds.
I am still surprised I'm blasé about The Amazing Race. Then again, I sorta felt that we might be done once they went wacky with the family season. Oh well, great while it lasted - and DVDs are likely to come.
+Reading new RSS blogs once! daily and non-RSS weekly
+Checking email accounts less often
+Spending my time consuming more quality/rich media & art. Imagine more DVDs per month will be screened (two a week would be great, based on netflix pricing - and that's 100+ titles annually). Foresee increase in writing, composing, chart and astrological reading plus cooking, seeing arts beyond the apartment, and dating.
If I was waiting for a movement, or such, to be a part of, I believe it's begun and is less "arts" and more vegie + media/marketing, especially talking to my new D.C. vegie pal.
The Dawghouse subtracts more than adds to my energies. +Handle your business here, mister!
Definitely is time to date.
I very well may switch seats at work with Sistah Step when Senior Team Lead is out next week. I shall be more prime time visible, and readied, though it may be part of my exit. As well, it just may be good to mix it up for me - definitely looking at change. Get Sistah Step to begin pushing it with our boss, if I'm for real, on Monday.
Unconcerned, and barely curious, with this item. Now it's time for be to be especially present, and deep with the gifts there. Too, this is more or less worked out already - as it were, er, will be. Feel me y'all, this is fine as it will be.
Hmmm, perhaps this is why Beyonce's Deja Vu and Christina's NO OTHER MAN opening two lines grabbed my attention this week. Predestined? Hmmm, I dunno about that. I am feeling like some folks, things are just up the roads we on unless we change roads.
I'm seeing my midheaven as related to templating, a la recipes, songs, and other texts that easily loan themselves to use and adding a bit of one's one interpretation/flavorings to them. i'm feeling like my mercury and ascendant somehow work together on concerns of archetypes - though perhaps i'm looking at the wrong chart relationship if i hear within correctly... that would push me to the venus, which seems more on point, yet uncertain base don my current astrological knowledge.
I definitely appreciate this idea of being an astrological advisor to some, in the nearer future (post Neptune-Sun conjunction, I believe). I feel like I have access to people's ears individually whereby using my influence is a cool, great thing even.
Feeling like all these personal, and vegand, blog entries are pointing me to listening back on my recent two astrological readings. As well, I definitely feel, and know, it's a great idea for me to raise my vibration.
I continue to feel like I will need to be more a monogamist with My Guy, and that this will be good, fine and healthy. And our detailed win-win agreement works. Too, I understood better today - hooray for listening! - this is about really connecting with my Other and allowing for the possibility that someone can really handle, keep up, and partner fully with me - all of that "too much" I often here. There is something, I sense, to be said for me focusing on Love, especially with my natal Pluto in Virgo! and the 5th house, and particularly with something so grand, someone so important, and, closer to what I've imagined, dreamed - natal neptune-jupiter-descendant, 7th house conjunction.
He's likely a vegetarian, definitely pro-vegan. I foresee him as be(com)ing vegan. This seem important vibrationally to where I am (going) and such a union. <== DEALMAKER
He may not live permanently, or at all in the NYC(NJ) metro, thinking about the many foreigners/visitors I've met over the years, and the impulse on my "Next City".
I know him when he's in the room/near vicinity that first time. This is long-stated, yet seemed this week, moreso real, moreso available to me.
He is nearby, or was, earlier in the week - like so many miles, the metro I suppose. Or so was the feeling.
As an underlying thread here is dealmakers, I'm adding: he is mulitculturally savvy and aware, whatever his ethnic background(s).
Lately, I'd bet the most on a black haired gent.
I believe today, or this week, I clicked into understanding why I'm in NYC NOW. I know I certainly came to be challenged and access more on many fronts, to grow myself further career-wise, and to see first-hand what this "greatest city in the world" is all about. Find I must admit to being distracted by the cushy Dawghouse daygig. Um, is this making me softer and less sharp professionally - which is contrary to what I need, and seek? I believe so. As well, I find myself easily on the side of unhappy with them, rather than happy, overall.
Some of it, I attribute to living under some early designs I came here, to New York City, with. And now, I feel those designs require transcendence, as they limit me, and evidence a contrariness to my Neptune/Sun conjunction, where boundaries may be dissolved easily and long-term plans as for suckers. This is where the dreams can manifest, where the ghostly can travel without bounds, and so on.
As I know NYC is not forever for me, now is the time I say aloud. Too, this feels like the 2nd half of my NYC time since I returned from Goa & London. Manhattan feels very accessible, ripe, and more a big thang vs. a big overwhelming what have you. The world is here, in a sense, so I can be in one place (this fog, if you will) yet have it all nearby. When that clears, I do believe I will go about into the world a lot more creatively, romantically and so on. For now, being deeper here seems so smart and what I need to do in my best, highest good - that I simply must 'get on the boat'
On the point of falling in love with NYC, or keeping this as my new home city: For me, it feels too taxing, or gruff, to be Home, or even Home-y, though perhaps it is homebase; I sense not between The Relationship and my Career as the U.S. West felt, and feels, more me. NYC was seen as a bridge to betterment for me, and a cool life experience period. Thanks Pete for calling this out at the beginning. This is where media - great media - is made many times, and I'm better fed multiculturalism. So let me Get It On :-)
I realized this summer (?year) the notion of me as cocktailer, (house music) lounge goer or zipping and zoomiing about New York City - or any one metro - is a facet rather than the gem of me. My time is more about molting and emerging; it's very little about networking a lot, high consumption of arts, or whatever.
A lurking question: skipping my 15th college reunion (next June)? Was miserable in being on the 10th reunion planning committee - partially because I wasn't a primary (or solo) driver. And especially because we let many great ideas fade into nothing, or worse wasted work. Today, I feel OK about skipping it. Feels out of the groove I'm on now. Further, I sense it's a good event, and OK to go, though far from paramount.
Reunion '07 (or the Family Reunion '06 going on right now) is a stretching me wide event, whereas my now is about getting in deeper qualitatively and/or quantitatively. This is related to aging, certainly, and my Neptune/Sun conjunction, probably more. That astrological aspect can be described as a semblance of fogginess for 2, 3 years I'm amidst now. During this aspect, it can be wise to keep the important things close by while other things float on. In other words, one could consider it like maintaining one's course on the road in a heavy fog, or rainstorm, to be safest.
Was surprised at the size of my footprint, though it's largely from flying. As well, I would love eating and other consumption/consumerism to be consider plus healthy habits like walking, biking, etc. etc. WHOLISTIC folks
http://www.climatecrisis.net/takeaction/carboncalculator/
Love the sound of this recent TIME cover story, per Slate:
The new "Prosperity Theology" teaches not only that riches and piety are compatible, but that God wants Christians to be wealthy, the cover piece reports. Gone is the notion of poverty as a virtue: Rather than ask the question, "For what profit is it to a man if he gains the whole world, and loses his own soul?" many Christians are wondering, "Why not gain the whole world plus my soul?" Best-selling author and "megapastor" Rick Warren calls the theory "baloney": "It's creating a false idol. You don't measure your self-worth by your net worth."
http://www.time.com/time/magazine/article/0,9171,1533448,00.html
Almost one-half (46%) of U.S. population growth in the next decade will come from three states: California, Texas, and Florida, which by 2016 will have overtaken New York as the third-largest in the country.
Though it has been widely underreported, women make up approximately 58% of the undergraduate college population, and that figure is rising.
http://www.fastcompany.com/magazine/103/open_essay-demographics.html
stickie from long ago...
expanding myself on audience and marketswith eventual eye to produce movies and musics.
eh on more trafficking roles. want to advance fiscally and business perspective-wise.
not sure account planner, or media planner, roles help vividly in that either.
Just Being Amidst Art
Again this idea emerges. I feel like I can be and do greater keeopint a daygig and spending 2,3 nights in classes. For the new edu year astroology seems like a msut then somethingS around voice by daygig$. and now I feellike autumn with printmaking
GRAFITTI EXHIBIT there
I'm interested in how sixties psychdelic ties to the colorful cartoony seventies moving to a loud explosive eighties including hiphop and grafitti then to the grunge and tribal dance music where people are looking to connect with expression and basic forms. This feels like a cycle
through elements thx
AMINAH LYNN ROBINSON
I love her content and appreciate her voice. The form that is cloth-based seems overly dense to my tastes and thus trying to follow.
I Love her sketches pencil and watercolor I believe. A greater clarity of mood comes over orr may be they say less so i'm not so overwhelmed
I am considering buying the book to send to pam and kimberlie to share. a postalMobile museum annex or exhibition addenda by way post
H&M is becoming my new Old Navy, or basic stores. Old Navy seems to be hipper GAP, competiting with Urban Outfitters, and going where Banana started - smart, nice, simple, foreign looks (with jeans).
Macy's is a store I simply must work - with one of their FREE personal shoppers - the sale racks, locally and beyond.
Banana's fall collection is boring me, though I like the idea threading throughout of subdued classy English. Like Scorpio mixed with later air sign. Would be curious to see the colors invigorated; not really ever been their aim or game.
Stepping out of the comfort zone is coming soon. Want to discover designers for designers sake, and my clothing needs. THEN address pricing, etc.
Like Banana, I feel like Express has SO lost the plot again. Somebody get Bush & Co. GONE quick. The Clinton years gave us so much more in expressive men's clothing!
Would take about 5-7 months of 8 hour days to rate and playlist the remainder of my current collection.
A newly emerging idea is to DJ Sunday afternoon (flavored) sets; could create a playlist called Teadance. No, that's not quite right for a name. Hmmm. It's a lighter, cooler vibe with a definite 70s 'foot' feel.
So according to the Metro Daily here (no pdf, or link as they didn't post the 06.20.06 issue PDF), Jane Pirone, publisher & founder of Not For Tourists agrees that Brooklyn is the new Manhattan and Queens is the new Brooklyn.
Hmmm, gives me good insight as to why I've stayed in Queens so long.
Today, I feel my energies are certainly 'hotter' yet sex is so unappealing as I question the motivations and bullshit of certain women and men.
I love that I'm up early reading blogs, news, emails. So much done in the first two hours today. Then ran out to store for a couple Rice Dream boxes plus soem Amy's Enchiladas - twice as much, yes. Alas, the trek to TJ's is not on this moment's radar. Maybe I can go post tarot with their cash ;-) Would be skipping beans and dozen Rx Drms. May need to arrange outlet trip, or something on that count.
How funny, I feel of the three screenplays in the midst - the non-music one, the mostly head shots, cheapest to shoot is most elusive. Is that because it seems to easy? Nah, I don't feel any direct or humming connection to the subject matter at present. As well, I bet the absence of music makes it less appealing. AND it's more a fluff piece really. More of myself is in the other pieces.
SELLING ME
For the 1/2 birthday trip, and new job pursuit, more money is cool. More career growth, likely duties, perhaps ownership/bigger possibilities bonus is what I'm after. Money would increase or stay the same. Might be a small company, boutique. I kind of liked Aveda's size (about 500).
For personals - which I see preceding the job pursuit, perhaps simply to get chart read/trip booked, I feel like that is in tandem with job pursuit, or related. Those ads can go up anytime this week. Of course, I need to write them, and choose sites before that.
Enjoyed this piece about a couple prominent Polish-aimed Greenpoint/Billyburg nightclubs. The Saturday night house music at the one caught my attention too!
http://www.villagevoice.com/nyclife/0623,carr,73472,15.html
as i think beyond Doghouse, i fathom dream jobs (aside from money, to give myself plenty of breathing space).
one particular idea seems timely and apropos for a New York audience. that is writing weekly, maybe nightly, sketch comedy that is more brash, irreverent a la MadTV on HBO, or In Living Color with my angle on it. It is respectful, though not 'p.c.' Perhaps pieces are even written on the fly during/before the program itself; this feels like a live presentation, perhaps taped/broadcasted later.
your reactions, thoughts?
i would love to be a bandleader and composer
i would love to write more scenes, wherever they need to be go.
i know i could, and would, enjoy a stint writing something in between MadTV and In Living Color skits. or perhaps less brainy Dave Chappelle sort of stuff? keep seeing it as live though. is it taped and broadcasted later? or simply 2nd run on the web?
What's your favorite spice to cook with and/or eat? And what's is a pronounced memory of this spice?
Feel free to post your answer to my blog, reply in email, or otherwise.
Just ordered Gregory Douglass' STARK rightfully pumped by Out Magazine (October 2006, p. 44). He's his own creature for sure, somewhere in the metro of Sarah McLachlan, Tori, and softer moody cafe crooners. Look forward to hearing this on my iPod. (Decided to pay a lot more and ordered the actual disc. Perhaps I'll gift it to someone? or simply resell par usual. Wanted him to earn more on it.) Big thanks to OUT!
Billboard (Jan. 28 2006, p. 20) notes the Irish music biz inaugarated an award similar to UK's Mercury as they continue to grow. I wonder how that relates to Dublin growing from the various tech, and other, industries moving in over the last decade or so. Relished the memories and visit just one year ago walking up the way for fresh juice and groceries this AM. Yum.
From some 2005 Out Traveler, I wrote "to advance, we must consider agin honestly for this is how time moves us. looking back is good and certaingly an educaiton too, though perhaps not propelled as we'd like."
From Fast Company (Dec. '05, p.12),"Animation is the only part of film production where quality is going up while costs are going down." Unions withstanding, I think we need to begin seeing this for filmmaking in general. I really am more prone to a cooperative profit sharing, beyond a base/basic salary payment, in my company's model.
BET had an ad, in Billboard, quite awhile back saying they were #1 in 2005 in five different categories. I'm so unimpressed. Of course, it's about more than money with me. As well, I think it's funny they've made it to 25 being so shallow and weathering the consistent criticism about shallow (if quite profitable) programming. Would love to see some better/highbrow amidst all the other stuff. Ah, dreaming again, yes, I am!
Found this VV article about Latin freestyle's early 80s origins being a compromise as hip-hop early on was quite black, and demanded to be strictly so. Hmmm, I guess we can live together; more application on the working together.
http://www.villagevoice.com/music/0616,veraacuten,72904,22.html
Microsoft may aim for Yahoo! acquisition
http://money.cnn.com/2006/05/03/technology/microsoft_yahoo/index.htm
Hmmm, the rumor takes life
true or false? http://money.cnn.com/2006/05/02/technology/business2_nextjobboom_cover0502/index.htm
a: maybe i'll have to go find out
I really enjoy seeing trader joe's bags on the subway.
REG is definitely about class and color in the US mixed with queer and perhaps religion. This is an idea that needs me to flesh it out. And that will happen in writing and dialgouing.
I need to meet new people and greet more art.
Last week in Feb 8-15 VillageVoice, Rob Brezsny of FreeWillAstrology fame, assigned this homework:
Name the one thing you could change about yourself that would improve your love life.
A: Confidence - for me, that often comes from doing/completing great AND mundane things, so basically if I work it (smart and/or hard), the offers, etc. etc. will come.
*Couldn't find on his site where to testify, maybe there is no such message board??
This title comes from a name of an EP project I structured and composed a good deal for. It is many many moons old, though only a few days ago in That sense of memory. The sounds stay with me as well because the project intersected the 2nd or 3rd Batman film, which is very much a door into duality of man's good & evil. Too, some of the moodiness, self-torture and deliberation is evidence in the best of Batman works, particularly comic books.
So now I really joined you here this evening to say hello, and I think about you more and more lately. Felt appropriate to reach out and speak from my voice, my heart rather than the usually rumblings and such of my oft-full head.
Attending Ailey last night left me with some good questions to ask myself around what creative involvements excite me. Dancing on stage not so much, choreographing for stage immensely - like that's partially what I'm suppose to do, whatever the scale, regardless of how it 'fits' in the bigger (career) picture of moi.
I do miss, somewhat, utilizing my French. I feel like its use will be more prevalent in days to come - for now, let's continue reading writing living loving and giving. It's a wonderful life I share in this time and world, as crazy as it all may be sometime.
The hunger is returning. What shall I do? ;-)
GOing to Ailey (pt.1) definitely did me good, and added SOmuch to the mix. (THanksfor today's song, Javier's "dance for me" - i see that dancing is good for me to view and participate in, likely from t he choreographer's chair.Producer seems alright too.)
Will continue to ponder and skribble the 3 year plan KF suggests in NEVER EAT ALONE. THis is definitely part of where i drew a lot fo (my) strength from in earlier years. Too, I feel like I need to go for some things I ENJOY! ho hum is well common boring and not what ALL i can have.
THe guys annual photo book idea I have collided with the ROck/RISKstar concept that's been floating around strongly in me lately. I see it as a pursuit of sexy images yet very little skin shown. About theclothes, the archetypes, the layout/composition - and not always solo modeled shots. Not too far from the fashion spreads magazine hook onto a narrative, save that it's about the narrative and message(s) vs. the clothes for sale. I imagine power dynamics would come out of this me being me and an '8'. As well, that's a good deal of sex, i think, especially when it's not so centered around naked flesh, bodies.
I'm kind of annoyed that this weather's turned SO cold and majorly windy. I really come alive at this point in the year - well calendar (thanksgiving to memorial day), so I want he weather to support my running round, working it, etc.
OK thanks - feels good to voice. I know some other thoughts were around. Alas, I'll need to voice record them more so I feel/find.
The Ex Factor feels like a great lesbian movie title to me...
May rent/get Usher's latest music videos to study, watach dance steps. May go back to Janet's Control/Rhythm Nation video collexions as well...
This last check and the next will fund air for MLK, and late dec, mid jan will fund air for February (back - at this moment - flirting with a b'day weekend trip, oh well on vegan Eatup, plus vegas over Prez weekend LOL P I G!)
(This isn't as bloggy as I'd wanted en route home tonight - ah well, i feel it's better in that regard.)
Martha & Co. ready a new magazine
http://www.adrants.com/sideline/2005/11/martha-stewart-company-to-launch.php
I'd thought like Carrie, and even the primary in E. Lynn Harris' INVISIBLE LIFE, I would live here amidst some constant posse. When has that every been my real life vibe, or functioning? I bounce between different friend(group)s that accent and support particular facets of me.
So the question is where do I want to add new local friends that support facets too quiet, or newly emerging? And how am I a writer here in NYC with respect to self-truth?
late posting - great day indoors, focusing on letting my mind dance about whole watching THE L WORD episodes 2-8 from 2nd season. It's not quite as great (or maybe i'd jaded?) as first season, if still demanding and incredible. Also watched recorded TV - I appreciate the way relationship tears were shown between Prez & hubbie on CIC, Lex & Clark on SMALLVILLE, LJ & his 'John Doe' Dad on PRISON BREAK (great plotting too, reminiscent of 24's BIG ol surprises), with the several dealios on L WORD. And Big hurrah for serialized TV shows :-)
6,6; 6.5.8 * moon Cap * i flow * 7 Wands
Sex, for me, is about being uncensored, full on, in tune and in practice, agency of sexuality, desire, passion, lust (as in life, Leo, Van Gogh).
I'm feeling very lucky to be alive right now. I certainly could do a whole host of things much better. Still am appreciating this NOW, the possibilities.
I've discarded, divided myself from my power - sometimes intentionally, often consciously. It is time to reclaim all of that; hearing, understanding the other spots where i've abidicated power to the ether, and a sprinkling of others.
firm foundation, healthy habits
i may (not) go to TOUCH tomorrow; we'll see how i roll post-lecture. I would like you to be home before 10:30 pm though.
thank GOd™ i'm here in this clarity, quietness. i'm glad i can do THIS, and bring it 'round with more of THAT.
Edge of genius? maybe, maybe not. i'm going to continue getting into more of what i want to, NEED to GO FOR :-)
Technology (esp. in Europe) driving music act's promotions
Need to meditate more on how I meet some local quality people - for fun, fun fun and otherWise. Is it online (e.g. Friendster, gay.com, gaydar...)? Is it wherever? Actually, how is it wherever, in that everyday way? At mixers? Blind friend dates? What? * I know some of it is presentation of self, a large part, though I feel like it's much about changing my vibrations to be open for this, and asking for it within, deep within (hey, none of that cackling!).
LOST milks it with a book tie-in this Spring
http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20051102/en_nm/leisure_lost_dc
Musto talks with NY Blade
http://nyblade.com/2005/10-28/locallife/main/snark.cfm
i realize, and affirm, again that i only need to create deeply, honestly and fully what is by way of me- to (re)shape and polish it, if apropos, and then i can, and will, find a market for it. perhaps even grow one. still bringing us - ok, me - to where's the story, jack?
speaking of which, how come i haven't written and published erotica after 20+ years of wanting to?!
So I'm imagining this place out West... it's an arts center, complex, creativity hub. More for the media & performing arts, with connections (or more) to fine arts.
Not sure if it includes soundstage, though a theater for stage and dance works is, of course, a must. And also editing bay/suite, plus recording studio(s). Yes yes, it's sort of like Paisley Park, except less away from folks, and for folks/community vs. just VIPs/friends. In the realm of a BAVC , ya, I suppose. Not sure what the Presidio campus includes, though I'm not currently playing with that level of cash or influence (that I know of!). * That's large, yes, I know. Would find the appropriate folk to run it, shine it, etc. There's more there... scripts writing development lab/workshop... gallery in lobby/-ies... outer wall(s)?
Seattle seems to hum for something like this, at the moment, though I want this to involve a numerous people of color, which hints at East Bay... are Wayans' still doing things over there? (Hadn't really thought about San Diego much, and that doesn't strongly vibe back.) Seattle also is down the road from Vancouver, which seems highly beneficial...
Hmmm, I'd really curtailed the dreaming - not the best choice, if understandable. Alas, I release these again, and ask for assistance here and Up High to better deal with, and deliver, them!
Been thinking for a few days (seems like this comes up in autumn over the years) about buy $100 or 10 (new) CDs a month to support folks with their independent releases + the Soundscan scores. This brings me current, and I could pre-order from Amazon, or wherever. This would come from daygig money, whereas collexion building is really from the Re$ells/initial collection :-)
Some of these CDs I would simply load and resell immediately to recoup AND keep my media close to the same. * I like this - need to sit with it a bit more, because I would prefer to hear the previews on iTunes/web beforehand - at least, sometimes.
I'm feeling good about subscribing to Billboard & EW end of November - hoping i would begin receiving issues with end of year biggies. plus, i feel good in being on rhythm with periodicals reading by/before that. :-)
I like the idea of Toronto for Thanksgiving, yet this isn't clicking as best. I feel like I may go on a daytrip overnight Friday, whereas I want to be here & out that Sat evening/night. I can fathom doing some theater, project(s), or such that weekend. * Who knows I may even participate in some cooking + group eating... Thinking it would be a place by car or bus... or yes even train. Asbury popped into view (again) before work this morning... we shall see. (I'm guessing the Newlyweds will go somewhere. ) Oooh, now i have pump'in pie on my mind LOL
Sounds like Buenos Aries is very cool, if quite meat, potatoes & oil from Rex Wockner's writeup, and blogging
GCN May '05 says According to the National Institute on Drug Abuse, 8% of US high school seniors have tried the drug [crystal meth] at least once. Well, hooray for that :-( * In Europe, crystal meth use remains virtually unknown, but for a drug that is devouring America how long will we remain untouched. ** Um, why is Europe so in the clear on this? And how can we notate, if not learn + implement from this?
OK, why are we spending waaay more per prisoner than (K-12) student? Very uncool, people, VERY!
Why we hate HR - provocatively titled article that helped me think deeper about (my) partnering internally (and externally) to reach company-wide goals.
I liked this Hopi piece, My Fellow Swimmers, that spirit twin shared...
I think this 80 South St Tower (click on SALES; it pans DOWN the building) is amazing! Love the title: The Vertical Manhattan Townhouse
Ah, here again, a bit about the US army having an Internet cafe in Tikrit since 2003 in holland herald (KLM's in flight magazine).
This guy/company is all about humanizing retirement communities - bravo :-)
ILM Animation head talks about escaping your pigeonholes at work. His four tips: 1) think skills, not experience; 2) fight corporate inerita [here here!]; 3) become a startup master; 4) seek the edge
Mississippi Power demonstrates how preparation sometimes doesn't apply, yet the being ready with something, like, oh say a Katrina, does!
Delta comes out with new int'l routes (almost all Europe, thank you very much) to get back in the black that much quicker...
To better understand other folks' agendas (esp. at work), I can ask myself: What are their goals?
Massive Change, Bruce Mao's wonderful design initiative, visits Chicago this time next year
How to Act Like a Designer - thanks Daniel Pink :-)
Liz Sanders, a 2005 Fast Company Master of Design is now working to help design hospitals that make patients, not doctors and administrators, the top priority. HOORAY!! 5 times Band, hit me.
Wired interviews a few of the prominent blogger-soliders... reminds me to consider unshelving my outlined piece Homrades...
I enjoyed this FC article about why it can be so hard to change our way
Love this line from Marshall Goldsmith (FC May '05 p 98): Listen hard to what you don't want to hear
Another line from same issue p. 82: To become aware of the possibility of the search is to be onto something. Not to be onto something is to be in despair.
Glad to hear Jennifer Hudson is working on an album in Orlando... and hinting there is more to dish about than just Corey and Paula ;-)
I love the ingenuius simplicity of this sunflower solar concentrator as we (need to!) move forward in alternate (and eco-safe) energy sources
Amused and imagining the AdMen getting hold of 'roadcasting'. Sort of like how they detect Tom Cruise's character in Minority Report, but car-based. Could share radios and other broadcasts from neighboring/nearby vehicles...
It's curious that I read this downloading media article before the video iPod was released. Particularly since Steve (Jobs) needs H'wood to make this happen and they'll steer it with(out) him + co.
Wired asks: Will the Internet put public libraries out of business? Answers seem to be more about reshaping their offerings, as is alreayd happening...
I enjoyed learning about how artist Ingo Gunther is creating themed globes from various political implications. Globe #175 asteroid impacts struck me immediately as a scifi story's visual seed. (yes, i know we've had quite a few books, movies, etc. on this sort of thing. that's why this realtime seed could be a curious touchstone to work from... maybe it isn't really involved, just inspiring.)
Would love this portable/pocket XM Satellite radio to be combined with iPod :-) - wait, that's a neoWalkman!
I smiled wide reading about Banksy's witty 'grafitti', and bringing art to the people vs. the elite. The two cops kissing didn't hurt either ;-)
Funny to see EA still making (hit!) games 20+ years later
i realized yesterday that i organize the world's largest vegan meetup, or one of, if numbers changed significantly. some questions came to mind: my volunteering for denver, i need a good book to read. the jul+aug magazine pile is more tame than i expected. really makes more sense to buy a book in denver OR take a more modest weighted one from here. * can use the time to write, read emails backlog - can borrow, even rent, a station * want to cafe, be out & about more this time
10 October 2005
*Waaay too many strip malls in Tampa from the limited bits I've seen this time. (Visited a great number of times as a youngster.)
*Today, sideburns & height stood out among the men I eyed longer than others.
*Do I Look Fat? rocked the house! This is what great film/doc can be. Hooray for courage on the participants AND filmmakers' parts!
http://doilookfatthemovie.com/
Aloe vera coating may prolong freshness, safety of fruits and vegetables
http://acswebapplications.acs.org/applications/ccs/application/index.cfm?PressReleaseID=2544&categoryid=
TV great Bochco to steer ABC's hit! CIC going forward as Lurie moves on
http://www.nytimes.com/2005/10/11/arts/television/11chie.html
*I guess I want a film done in the Southwest to be more frugal in production monies AND visually ANTE-ing up. Alas, that is for me to pursue, not expect you too, especially unasked!
T-shirt line from Chad Allen (not sure if i'd wear or print this considering where i feel things are going soon(er))... Theater is life. Film is art. TV is furniture. Out May '05 (yes, i'm not on my 60 day cycle for processing periodicals...) mentions X/O Chicago on Halsted (3411 N). I wondered what was there previously... looks like a cabaret/bar named Voltaire - which rings a bell - since 2000. I guess Delta's JFK to Berlin non-stop dealio became a casualty of the bankruptcy - wait, no, i found one. I'd wanted to google John Scognamiglio, and did... he's editorial director at kensington books. I love this (quite astute) line from Moby: Approx. 84% of USA's gays and lesbians have valid passports vs. 29% of the general (USA) population Story idea/sci fi: gay marriage is allowed, yet each/all marriages must procreate at least once... population explosion*
depart 5:55 pm/arrive 8:10 am (very cool, hehehe); leave berlin 12:10 pm/land JFK 2:50 pm
ok, so if leave thu pm, and return monday - would get a 3+ day weekend. for say $486
"I say that I don't live in America, that I live in the Island State of Manhattan. [Laughs] Manhattan is to the United States as Hong Kong is to China."
-from Out Traveler
That's almost triple the percentage!!?!! Is that because of parenting, or a sense of not questing beyond the easily known?
*inspired by this bit from Scene Aug '05's from the publisher note: "...I think this [gay folkd] is God's way of birth control"
Oh how fun - Ex-'Idol' Constantine signs ABC sitcom deal with Kelsey Grammer
I went here http://newmoon.us/ tonight seeking, hmmm, I wasn't sure what - some semblance of a church meeting I suppose since it is a Chapel. I understood I'd see a guy I know from astrology meetup - who turned out to be a speaker, and quite inspired at that. (Perhaps he thinks I didn't approve. Not true at all, I needed to listen to the message and not so much my thoughts, choosing to look 'nowhere' to do that - which worked nicely, for me.)
Was out of place overall, if good to see people are doing their (spiritual) things. As well, I admit working as a planner/calendar +event creative - certain expectations are there as I know certain things I would work, and hope, to address BEFORE the thing so the thing can be that much more. Loosey goosey, if wellattended and intended. Great to see a variety of colorific folks. Saw some inspirations for future wardrobe editions too. The artwork Alex Grey does is astounding and sophisticated. (Yes, passing on the leadership lets people grow into, through and 'beyond' that. Bravo to he & Alison for doing that - don't know her spelling offhand, so that will do for now.)
Part of it was I didn't necessarily clarify or set my intention before i went. Too, not sure my chakras are at their best spinnings thus far in this journey or as of late. And not sure if actively playing paintball was really were I might've been best tonight. * Found myself seeking Him, yet not expecting to find Him there. In fact, I feel he has a constant conflict (of calendar, i suppose) and would not be there. Too, not sure if it's quite his thing, though he would be open to it, very perhaps. ** Which all begs some thought, or did en route home, about why the energies, dreams have gravitated towards this him. I suppose it's natural in a 5th house transit time (5th deals with romance, among other things). It's good to think and write about these things as I turn my attentions more to the new moon, current connections and continued creativity.
I understand he is nearer, or I to he - and this is a good thing.
Martha Stewart Working on a Third TV Show
http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20051001/ap_en_tv/martha_stewart
ya, i should use the links thing from webpage - with safari, it's a whole different exercise - to save time and admin effort. the goal is to focus on the writing y'all :-) er, me!
*I should track down the cassette of The Gyrlz's album - song title escapes me at the moment - and dub it over that a way :-) This isn't paramount just right now.
Oh, a waking thought: keep growing, improving, resurging, and let clarity on a specific, big project emerge for a FULL week, then G O! (suspect this will come as winter begins, or is in progress).
I need four meals before I fly out; actually one to take wed eve would be 5, plus drink(s) & snack. (Twill be fun to do DVD playing going forward; loved Renato's description of DVRing things directly onto a hard drive! yeehaw, don't need it yet. just love this idea of flipping into a very digital world. I see, and sense, that's not quite yet though...)
If I can buy the 2, or 3, books at work, do we have a % somewhere? Really, I bet AMZN is the way to go, so I put 1,2 of the titles in my shopping cart. Really, I don't see reading one of these on vacation. In fact, that seems contrary to the whole point/vibe of a (and this) vacation. If I change my mind, I can buy the book in my travels. ** I think I want to read the Da Vinci Code - find/borrow paperback - en routes.
OK, so I think this dessert buffet idea (Vegan EatUp) is a great idea. Need to sketch it out to be more contained, and not over doing it on the spending. Hearing under $200, likely more. I see Vegan Treats, Bethlehem as not an official event, small handpicked group to go - besides only 4-6 will fit in vehicle. Then we could/may offer to pick up items for folks that pre-pay in advance. The event itself would be later that day/evening or the next. I guess I'd do it later that same day:-) ** Now why wouldn't I simply attach on an order direct, or sub, through her Tuesday delivery? I guess because it's a fun roadtrip idea, though I'm not finding an efficiency in going - though wait wait I put it in front of Thanksgiving for people who could take something by Danielle for a holiday celebration to smack people's expectations around ;-)
Will revisit later. I do believe this is an event near Thanksgiving/before Christmas. January is much about the dieting; I'm seeing doing a vegan chocolates something for February's 2nd event. April's could be a pagan easter something - maybe the aforementioned potluck. June is a picnic, eh? August is something indoors and cool, oh so raw, eh? October is harvest themed. Next December is a cookie exchange... All sketches, nothing signed onto. (Yes yes, I know, I love event production.)
DREAM #010093001
one dream was something about what i'm putting on my face/head or scalp had something from eel (or sea creature) in it though it seems to read as some non-animal item
*let's do the pizza party (give it a name too, "10-4 Good Buddy" (+) schedule room/time (+) send mtg appt.)
*what about going up to providence overnight one of those 1st two november weekends? 2nd one seems rather ripe... doing trader joe's run back closer to the apartment, and clothing outlet(s) on the way up... hmmm
if event production excites me so, why don't i do it professionally, or interim before i do media production?!
looks like i will toss a bunch of clothes (finally!) in my current wardrobe. this is to open the hands, er, energy to receive new duds. too, i need to move towards the particular- time to upgrade dazzle svelte and otherwise :-)
i found myself on the scale a short while ago. was the same weight so long, didn't realize or believe a gym (yes gym) scale last week that said i was 169 lbs. maybe it's denser weight - perhaps above the neck, though i think it's elsewhere, and my body shape shifts (nothing unseemly, thank you very much) are part of the 'aging' process. helps me understand how the body clock and food desires have changed. and here i thought i was going to do lots of garlic mashed potatoes this autumn ;-)
combo i liked i saw a week ago:
(distinctive, perhaps crisp) white shirt + camel colored pants
This Class 'calculator' is raheer cool, and curious
http://www.nytimes.com/packages/html/national/20050515_CLASS_GRAPHIC/index_01.html
R&B artist Dwele dons many hats for second albu
http://news.yahoo.com/s/nm/20050924/music_nm/music_dwele_dc
in light of where i was last night around this time, yes,
The problem with blogging is the allure of speed.
We are tempted to post without previewing our words.
We are tempted to comment everywhere and about everything, like drunken bees, like cocktail-fueled dilettanti, like shoppers who caress but do not buy.
Addicted to the sugar of any strong headline, we begin to stop conjuring, and opt for reacting to the spark of other fires.
We sell our own furniture and begin to reside in the rooms of others.
http://farmboyz.blogspot.com/2005/09/problem-with-blogging.html
well said fellow blogger, VERY well said
am i saying
enough
in this space
for my best
my needs?
and don't i need to share that, at least with me-
or is it better if it bounces around in my mind first/more?
hmmm, yes, on conversations with self.
more writing regardless of thought count/incubation
i can/could share more here, and feels that's OK
aligned
you've just colored my autumn
like the best painter
thinkin' not much of the moment
yet seizing it
in such a lovely way
for this
i am thank full
to you
to You
4 U
i've been humble, i've been haughty
can be serious, definitely naughty
the thing is
i'm always me
the thing is
i've just got to be
suggest you do the same
don't follow, dare your name
you be you/what no one else can do
may be crazy/just a little different
you be you/who we all need
the funniest joke/you'll succeed
YOU
BE
YOU
am i at this job from some script playing out of feeling impoverished? i suppose we're all working out karma/energy in the various relationships we participate, or don't, in...
as well, really, not only do i want to, need to be the boss - to do what i'm driven to, fired up to, and what i see others aren't doing that i want done, out there - guess what, Mutt? We need to do that for ourselves, I need that for myself - to share the expanse of me/Me
Something earlier about having an artist, or performer, to canvas upon visually, sonically - shaping a star career without getting SO lost in the trees being that frontliner. Too, that's only marginally appealing for a minute or three for me. Doing behind the scenes is more where the power and money is... more so the creative control. Not against being on stage, or screen, just doesn't grab me in the same way. And doesn't, overall, feel like the road I'm on. Of course, life is surprising me more and more lately... ;-) so I stay open to being the better and best of Me.
the job is to reposition myself in a good many ways while earning a rather good income. alas, i need to do my things.
for example, i could so see directing several art shoots with the pornstar i chatted up the other night. not sure if he'd be into it, and i certainly would want 2,3 people to help pull it together so we get great imagery. his website has 2,3 shoots, with some successful photos, yet don't do the best job of seeing him as this reluctance cum defiance cum youth in a handsome 'bust' and otherwise shapely guy.
* i'm thinking army greens/attire
*i'm seeing kilts and grass, maybe trees - playing with a stance of masculinity against this idea of a skirt in a way that is more irreverent, perhaps a barely fuck you. he reminds me a bit of billy idol and younger madonna, the sneering and the balls yielding a certain 'dare me', a 'fuck you up, man'
*oh, suit for sure. maybe with and without tie(s)
there's more there - maybe he's a photogenic muse point for me? - that's quite a bit to unpacked in my mind as those are mostly word images, though i get quick flashes of some of those images.
*oh, something indoors with black lacquer, or black shiny surfaces - these are more nudes, since he's rather pale...
read this apple design shop case study http://www.apple.com/pro/design/deutsch/, and thought why are we struggling with basics at daygig (or even non-profit i'm volutneering for right now) when it's already out there, known, available? and how do i best participate in that for profit, propulsion, and wise expansion of Demetrius?
strong on my mind last 24+ hours...
given $1M post-tax would, currently, break something like this in my hands:
150k = indie movie project a
150k = indie movie project b
150k = indie movie project c
50k = digital office/mobile studio
30k/yr x 10 yrs now monies; my income goes to mortgage(s), savings, investments & travel
100k property down payment
25k TBD - perhaps a year (or two) of seeing the USA live... maybe with a hybrid? something fun and good for me!
25k savings
50k investments
Funny V.Voice piece A critic's guide to what not to watch in the new fall lineup
Bit more on USA gay TV channels
Great Parade article on dethroning parents as gods, yet keeping them as a sort of vanguard... Veronica Chambers' My Father's Gift Of Magic
a dream (maybe the nap, maybe the nocturnal), something about the importance of dance in relation to my other art pursuits
article from some days ago...
Gay advice guru Michael Alvear lands on HBO’s ‘Sex Inspectors’
http://nyblade.com/2005/9-2/arts/main/alvear.cfm
I think I will clothes shop this final 2005 year third on the offensive. More look for what appeals, attracts, and then address affordability. This more so needs to be about what I desire to wear, enjoy, project - and guess what, not so much for all the incredible savings. (Still love my $5 jeans more so because of the fit and slow-forming rips - in the front pocket area thank you very much.)
Feels like I wouldn't do a big Thanksgiving trip, though would like to do something special or a daytrip if I'm spending a lot of it packing up. Some great meals - out or housed - also seem in order.
As well, that eyeballed first weekend in Miami/Ft. Lauderdale seems unlikely too. Though if 'spirit twin' moves to that coast/area, I'll figure out a random weekend to go. Visit her and 'stagings sistah'
More later, need to work off this pile quick.
Jackrabbit Releasing seems to be British-based... was wondering and Googled it. Do like their sensibility, and wonder about writing something all their lines. Though Where is Marco? is more what I'm after cast-wise - how do those relate if at all. That's a Tiatn-distributed product...
As I continue reading in more detail editorials, opinions, and facts about Katrina's aftermath, I find myself ready to grab a car and head south, or send much of my cash to them (wait, don't i need it to better reposition myself to be better able to assist), or to work (t)here as an emergency logistics coordinator - i think with proper knowledge and realm I could be really great at that.
In passing thoughts, and this wish to write (creatively, fictionally as they say) about, or even from, this devastation, pain, embarassment, dysfuction, and such, I heard within I am story WITH song(s) because emotional I might fill up and need to stop and deal with that first because the linear, or progressing, narrative moves along. This is a great thing to know and realize. I give much thanks for that - I am head AND heart. To share myself fully, this particular combination is important and truthful - if perhaps not the tradition es
